quietly.. waiting for the last breath to be taken away..

gone with the wind..

its long long journey..
YESH la.. Completed the EX Endurance! Hrs of walking.. blister nv seems so big before.. Thx to my detail (ShunQiang, Yi fong n darren) Nv give up and press on..!!
Soon will be my POP.. New rank n new environment n new allowances.. hehe.. of cos its all cums with bigger responsibilities.. advance congrats to all my fellows SCT to SGT.. WEll DONE.. Good JOB.. more to come! LOL.. jkjk =)

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[waken from dream]
a dream that had took me away..
so far.. far away from myself..
leaving my empty body..
separating my soul..

now, seeing myself with all the changes around..
sourcing out wads in her nid..
knowing wad i can give..
its not me..
i'm just not the one..
trying hard to be one..
but nv the one to be me..

letting her be ur only one..
knowing ur not her only one..

missing her, like nv before..
knowing she is missing hers always..

wanting to protect her.. yet
knowing how she was hurt..

giving her that trust.. but
she trusted the betray..



its just a little story..
story that change the fate of two..
two persons to a connetion..
connetion to a frenship..
frenship to relation..
relation to a separation..
separation to a avoidance..
avoidance to a stranger..
stranger that nv exist..

Is that how e story ends?

wad a wk...
wasn't doing gd at all.. just not in e mood to do things i guess..
its not e first time tt happen.. in e past.. i'hv already experienced it.. yet.. it just repeats!

Wad am i doing.. y am i doing ts?
y worry so much? no nid for tt..
wlll that change anything? Hu do u think u are?
stop been selfish.. let go.. you cant hold happiness in tt way..
all ya doing is destorying wad ur having now..
U knew all these could happen.. y still insist?
r u following ur heart? is tt the way...

haiz.. Sianz Ar!!!!
am i still tattooing like Before? i dunnoo..

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GG wk... just done with the 24km east coast march.. n i got blister for 1st time!!!
Weakening!! LOL.. mayb its cos of tt boots? anyway.. 40km is coming up nx.. die liao la.. duno can make it anot.. Seriously its all abt.. "MIND OVER BODY" YosH..~

its something interesting..
enjoy.. =)

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can
make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it
to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about
finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they
aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look
in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is
to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works
both ways...

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you',
but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I
wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how
good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to
go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too
persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when
someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you
love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to
find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.

If he isn't worth it now,
he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

wad a day!!!
YAWNnnnnn!!! just woke up nia.. so sian.. so tired...
hmm.. thinking I'm silly~ness again.. haha..
JOKE la.. seriously ITS A JOKE man..

Uni.. ppl around started talking abt it.. wonder if I'm able to get in local uni.. but my GPA just nicely below 3.0! Argh... or working will be a better?

was chatting with 3in1.. wad she said was TRUE.. from a outsider point..
y am i doing so?

some painting r not meant to be complete.. or not suppose to be perfect..
leaving it as it is.. onli that will brings out wad unique abt it..
wanting to perfect it.. nearly cos the effort in starting it to waste..

i always said tis to ppl around.. dun waste your effort for coming so far.. press on.. push on.. move on!! ur not far from finishing line.. (even its not insight)

back. I'm used to how my heart n mind comms when it comes to her..
i dunno how to CONFIGURE it now.. but i know modification is part of the requirement!..

r u lost reading it? haha.. tt's how my brain process.. crossing here n there.. hope ya dun lost by thinking too much abt it.. LOLx..

once, he told her abt wads in his heart..
she choose to ignore..

he told her abt the bond btw them..
she choose to mistaken it..

he choose to get closer to her...
she decided to stay away..

is he reali the wishfull side?
wads stopping her from admiting him?

will he be such disaster to her life?
will he ever understand her reason?

all she wanted for was just simple frenship.
y must he make things so unpleasent for her?

will this frenship be well cherish?

is this wad its suppose to be?

is something that exist between 2 person..
bringing them close and ...

Hey.. Updates..!!!
hmm.. went for dinner with my parents and my cousins, nv know tt i'm actually "Uncle" of 19yrs old niece.. chim rite. nvm.. can't believe tt man.. when they called me hello, UNcle hahaa.. last thing i ever knew in 2008!!!

Yup, thot i'm LATE.. but u know.. ya.. haha.. Meet up with Mon Kyi n.. ermm.. eh..
errr.. his Gf la.. and.. aiya!! all his frenz la, can't recall their names
Wahahaha..

WE Went to Villa Bali.. thnk tt's e name ba.. nt sure too.. just follow them n get there.. Couples all around. SIAN n Where is DEsmond, Dexter n JIELEME? Anyway we started drinking without them. Wahaha.. Nt bad nt bad.. mon kyi seems to be deeply loved by his frenz.. Anything also him.. lol.. even **** also love him so.. tt's wad i have to agree to!! la la la.. drink drink drink.. laugh laugh laugh.. stone stone stone.. talk talk talk.. ohya.. thanks to mon kyi.. i get to know tis pair of fun loving couple.. they reali make my day sia.. but sad thing still.. i forgot their names.. LOL.. better not let anybody read tis.. Mon kyi hor.. u know wad to do rite.. "Sexy eyes, YEAH!!"

5.. 4.. 3.. 2.. 1..!!!

HAppi New Year!!!

continue drinking!! flash light all around.. even my eyes couldnt be capture sia.. so small.. LOL..

JIELEME LAI LE.. n he took my glass n Started Drinking.. tt's my Free Flow. anyway.. we all ended Merlion~ing LOl.. Lead bY JIELEME.. follow By Me.. ened with MOnKyi WAhahaha.. n its my first time drinking so much..

SUMMARY..
I ENJOYED MY LAST 2008 N FIRST 2009 MOments with Frenz =)

its a usual sat morning.. i woke up n started playing my com, breakfast etc..
thinking of talking to my grandmum after.. my dad is done with feeding her and dressing her wound.. "nvm.. later den i go in n talk to her.. " but i nv knew tt.. its actually the very last time i could have such thots.. my dad came out of her rm n say "she's gone" with the watery eyes. i was stunted! n the nx moment i knew was.. i'm looking at her face with eyes close.. so quiet.. not even the her breathing.. n i hold her hands.. so cold.. den i realise such mistake i have make.. dad use to say these to me.. " talk to her when ya free.. nid not to be long.. just awhile.. a few sentances .. few words.. or even just call her name.. she would be happi.. knowing tt ya there.. mayb even touching her face or hands.. letting her know ya there.. cos 1 day.. she might not be around.. n tt will be too late.. " i all did was.. "ok.. ya.. later.. " cos i usually leave house early n came home late.. busi with all other stuff. n now..
WAD THE HELL AM I THINKING.. WHY.. I'M SUCH AN IDIOT..

Me: Ah Ma, Wa Si Ah Di Ar..
Ah ma: Ah Di ar, Ai Guai hor.. Mai Run Run Chao.. Ai Di Chun Hor..
Me: hor.. Ah Ma.. Jia Ba Ber?
Ah Ma: Jia liao.. Ai Jia hor.. Mai Da Bai Jia Wa Kao.. Di Chun Jia Hao..
Me: hor..

just few words.. yet i didn't make it happen tt day..
i'm so FUCK UP.. just so.. how i wish i had.. just how i wish..
just too late..

now i miss all those chldhood days.. with her..chasing after me for not eating my food.. canning me for wadever i did.. scolding me for been naughty.. haiz..

"Ah ma.. Wa Si Ah Di ar.. An la.. Ah Di ay Guai Hor.. An Sin hor.."

Treasure wad u have..
not just knowing it..
but doing it..
before its gone..
n tt will be too late..
regret will not change anything.. but just.. regret..

tis have waken me up.. leaving such aching in my heart..

ply - Gold..
BMT - Silver..
BMT - PASS..
BMT - Silver..
BSL - Silver
BSL - Gold
SI - PASS
SI - GOLD

yup.. tt's WO DE fitness status!! haha.. YOU up YOU down just like my pulse!!
y WO suddenly YAO blog NER? Ying Wei.. WO did it with PRIDE.. of cos WO SHI ZAI SHOU WO DE IPPT la.. haha.. so far understand? or UNDERSTOODed?

okok.. back to normal..
yup.. was kinda sian when i got 216 for my ippt on monday!!(instead of 239). Big Diff rite? As usual.. i'm expected for a retest on Friday!!! Ha~. but tis time round.. i have to GET BACK MY GOLD nomatter how..
its not for timing..
not for position..
not for ppl..
not for Wa Yang purpose.. but for..
PRIDE!!! So its a tought battle to put on for 216 to 234(least) to achieve GOLD!!
cos WITH PRIDE I LEAD!! WAhahahaa..
n i DID IT!!! with a new record of 9.13 for last station!!

WAd a Gayness Wk.. !!!

haha.. FResh Start for me..
n onli i noe e reason..
Free... i'm free...
haha...

Self Updates..
yup.. i'm now busi with "ur left.. ur left.. ur left. rite.. ***" everyday!!
haha..
also start Dbing recently.. these r some of the pics.. we even praticapted in
race!!

i nv expect anything from you...

its no right or wrong..
its nobody fault..
its not to be blame for..

just..
been giving too much for this yrs...
tt's all..

so painful.. just so..

Ha.. We come from different place..


But we share e same hairSTYLE~!! So we R call A TEAM..!!! lolx..


Wee~.. Gay shit!! he cross finishing line with that!! Slipper!!!! oMg...


Hey.. Wads with that look!! no doubt.. i'm TattooING again!!!
WATCH OUT~!!


Its not just a tag.. its aaaaaaaa..... aa..... a.aa..... ttTa....aaa...ggg...!!!


With Pride.. i Lead.. ***..!!! Wahahahaaaa


my Team photo!!! WE dun look Sad.. we r just.....ssssaaaadddddd... !



We r the FINISHER!!!!!

back from field Camp!!!
GG man.. LOLx.. nx week will be going for another!
tis is.... GayNess!!!

hmm...
was thinking of someone...
meet her online...
strike a conversation with her..
but ended just like a dream..

OOoO.. its Alive!!!!

JK captured!!!

isn't it nice?

its well.. DONE!!!! WAhahaha

Long Neck Village!






hmm... interesting~!! lolx..

i'm TEMPLE~ING~~~

process of enlightening~!! lolxxx

RING~!!! RING~!!!
BACK TO SCHOOL~!!!
My SCH~!! WAHAHAHA...

the explorer's bike!


Yoz.. finally..
new POST~[ ATV adventure ]~ !!!
Yes.. its 3hrs journey and 42km discovered! =)
well.. there's so much to share.. so i just let e pics do all e talking.. =)